I wish...

There are 24 hours given to us to complete each task per day

Yet that hours seem to be so short

Why cant it be any longer?

I wish I know how to use the 24 hours

HE create that hours for us

Be grateful for what has been given

It is just the matter of know's and no's

Give chances to yourselves

Don't ever regret the time that passed

I wish the 24 hours move slower

HE knows the best for us

Believe and have faith in HIM

There are some who can't get through the hours any more

There are changes in every each of who

It is just the matter of time

I wish the 24 hour freeze

All the moment can be kept

Not in hand but in mind

Always thank HIM for whatever happened

There are always something hidden behind

Be patient for whatever changed

I wish I know the 24 hours

At least they never change

HE provides what is in need

People change but time don't

Be tough

Be brave

Try harder

I wish I am who I need to be

. Deep . Future . 2 .

Assalamualaikum

Like always it has been about half of decade this blog being neglected. Its not that I dont wanna write or update, its just that I'm so busy with my intern life. Plus, I've becoming lazier when I get back from work. You know with all the jam stuff on road which makes my day become more tired. Okay stop with the bluffering. Let the story begin...

As stated on the title above, this post is wrote rentetan dari my previous post. Beforehand, mr.driver had told his mom which is my bakal mak about us and I had a wish to tell my mom about 'OUR' matter. Alhamdulillah I'd been given an opportunity to talk to mak openly.

Introduction:

That morning, Nani, one of my neighbour come to my house nak ambil kek. On that time mak tengah design 'Merdeka' cake for this one pengantin. Nak dijadikan cerita, spontaneously Nani asked, "Syud, kau bila nak kawen?". Well that is one famous question at this age. Then I just replied, "Tanya la mak aku tu ha", hikss jawapan selamat. Then nak tau my mom cakap apa, she said "Hai dah ada ke calonnya? Baru je practical." I just smiled like kerang busuk tepi laut.

So that's how everything unexpectedly started.

Content:

Setting: In my Kancil on our way from Tg.Karang to Batu Gajah around 6pm. Then abruptly...

Mak : Dah ada ke calonnya? (suddenly mak asked me)

Me   : Ada dah mak. (shakingly I answered her question)

Mak : Baru practical kat shah alam berapa bulan dah jumpa calon?

Me   : Eh calon dah lama dah jumpa mak. Hehe

Mak : Siapa?

Me   : Ala mak kenal. Mak dah pernah jumpa dah. 

Mak : Eh dah pernah jumpa? Kawan sekolah ke?

Me   : Bukan-bukan. Bukan kawan sekolah.

p/s: don't read my mom's with serious tone. It's just sempoi tone.

I was surprised. She thought I've relationship with one of my school friend. Well mak said she feels a little bit confused because I have many boy-friend back from my primary school. I don't realize that though.

I tried not to mention his name to mak at first because I wanted this conversation to become wider. I'd made a right decision. We then started to talk about merisik, tunang, nikah and then the majlis. I told mak my opinion about not getting engaged and you know what, mak agree with that. She said actually they (mak & ayah) just wanted a simple nikah and kenduri doa selamat. But since getting married is once in a lifetime, insyaAllah, if possible I want a moderate majlis. Well I can't argue more about that because I'm not working yet and my pocket is just full of air.

Me   : Mak, nanti angah mak nak letak hantaran berapa? (I think this is the time to ask)

Mak : Orang kata hantaran sekarang ikut level belajar kan?

Me   : Kalau macam tu, angah degree atas 10k la? (Just asking without any intent)

Mak : Ish tak boleh macam tu. Ikutlah mana yang mampu. Mak tak nak nanti lepas kahwin berhutang

           pulak. Kang, anak mak jugak yang kena sekali.

Me   : Betul ni mak tak kisah berapa?

Mak : Iye, berapa yang mampu la.

Mak is very concern about her daughter future. I'm so happy on that time. 

We continuously talked about this stuff as my Kancil passed through the town. I asked mak about my sister's wedding last two years. I just thought that I need to ask her more about my sister's because she had experienced it once. So, there's maybe some imrovement she wanna do for the second one, insyaAllah. There are two things mak said that ayah doesn't agree with. They are:

1. Pelamin & All the tepung tawar stuffs

2. DJ rental which pot pet nonsense

I agree with the second one but for the first one I think I want it but without tepung tawar. Ala I just want the pelamin for photograph session only. Please ayah let me have just a SIMPLE pelamin. Oh yes, and the syarat-syarat to nikah are:

1. Graduate first, belajar kena habiskan dulu

2. Get to work, ada gaji baru boleh cerita

Say yes, say yes cause I need to know. (Rude by Magic)

Around 8 o'clock, we almost arrived opah's house. Then again mak asked...

Mak : Siapa calonnya?

Me   : Ermm. (I still in doubt whether to tell her or not)

Maiyah : Ala mak abang S****I tu.

Maiyah interupted but I still feel thankful to her. Oh pasang telinga jugak budak ni kat belakang.

Mak : Oh yang tu. (She knows him. Mak knows him! Oh world, mak knew!)

Me   : *can't hide my wideeeee smile*

Mak : Kira tu dah final dah la? Dah tak nampak lelaki lain dah?

Me   : Takat ni tu jela yang nampak mak. Hehe

Mak : Apa lah agaknya kelebihan kat dia sampai tak nampak yang lain dah. (Mak jokingly teased)

Me   : Entah lah mak. (I can't answer that question either)

p/s: don't read my mom's with serious tone. It's just sempoi tone.

So that's my first time having such discussion with mak. Maybe she can openly discuss this matter with me because it is her second time; and maybe because lots of her friend's son or daughter got married just at my age. I hope I can get more courage to discuss about this matter with ayah. But I think that's a long way to go.

Tough luck my friend, no still means  no. (Rude by Magic)

InsyaAllah I still got one year of study while he will start his work about next month after 6 months of training. I hope everything that we plan, will run smoothly. But we can only plan, Allah is the greatest planner of all. Everything is in HIS hands. Pray for us guys.

Every each things happen for a reason.

If they are meant to be, don't feel afraid to fight or to loose.

Because what's yours will always be yours.

If it is not yours, it will never be.

30/08/2014

. Deep . Future .

Assalamualaikum...

Seronok rasanya bila dapat jumpa mak ayah dan jugak si dia pada hari yang sama. Bahagia je rasa hidup ni. Hiksss. By the way congrates to my lil sister dapat sambung belajar kat UiTM Arau, Perlis. Selamat menjadi warga UiTM dan jugak warga Perlis. Belajar rajin-rajin kat sana.

Lepas habiskan masa dengan mak ayah kat Perlis satu hari, tiba masa untuk dorang pulang ke Selangor. They dropped me kat USM and drive back to Tg. Karang. Have a safe journey mak and ayah :)

Sampai je USM dan selamat ber bye-bye dengan mak ayah tadi, terus bersiap-siap ke 'Pulau'. Two weeks waiting is just long enough for me. Almost one hour driving, sampai la ke Bayan Lepas and I met him there. This time it's very different. We had a very deep conversation. About our future together. I'm glad si dia dah bagitau bakal mak about us and niat to get engaged. I am extremely happy about this. Siapa tak happy woii kalau bakal mak dah approve. Tapi bakal mak kata tunggu habis recruit dulu baru la further discuss about this matter. So now maybe I should start to give hints to mak and ayah about this matter.

He talked about job, house, transportation and other things. He did know lots of thing which I'd never think about. Now that I'm sure he is really serious about us. I once asked him, 'agak-agak mak awak nampak ke yang kita serious?'. He replied with simple answer, 'kalau tak serious, orang tak bawak awak jumpa'. Deep.

Age of twenties really make us think more about our own future. I just gotta know my cousin same age with me baru je bertunang a few weeks ago. Mak kata takpe la yang cepat, cepat; yang kemudian, kemudian. Dah jodoh :) That's right. Jodoh is in HIS hand. Kalau betul si dia tu jodoh, nothing will ever stop us from being together. Tapi kalau sebaliknya, there maybe a hikmah and we must redha because HE knows the best for us. That's it. I pray and hope I am in a right path. Pray for me that he is the right one for me. Maybe its too early but who knows? I love being loved by him and I know I'm still young to talk about future but I don't know. It just happen.

I really hope that he is the right one for me.

If I'm wrong, please tell me in any way so that I'm not falling for him.

I really hope I can be a better person so I can be a good daughter, wife and mother.

I am not sure about any of this but I know we're never be ready until we've been in the situation ourselves.

Strength please be with me.

15/06/2014

It's 16th MAY guys !

HAPPY TEACHERS DAY

to all who being a teacher to me and to other kids in this whole world :)

Especially all the teachers whom taught me the real meaning of life from the beginning of my life until now

First of all, of course thanks to my PARENTS whom the best teacher for me

who has taught every single thing about life

always be there and never let me be scared alone

Thanks to SuperMAK and AwesomeAYAH

Both of you are the best teacher for me :)

Then, I started my school days as early as 5 years old

until 6 years old, that was a really young age

During that time, I played, I ate and even slept really well

Hope that time can be rewind

So...

Thanks to teachers from Tadika Kemas and Taski Abim An-Nur Tg Karang

for giving me opportunity to PLAY :)

Primary school started and I started to know more about life

I did homework, did lots of exercises and even went to tuition class

I started to know people, tried to get friend

and yes that was the period when I've made many friends

Joined many tournament and received certificate

All those experiences thanks to teachers from

SK Batu 9 Jalan Bomba :)

Next chapter of my life was flipped

It was Secondary school

I am quite loyal cause I've stayed there for 5 year (WOW!)

I learnt to be matured and knew how to handle people

I learnt who I need to depend to, who the real friends are

Myself; so much got change along my years there

I knew the meaning of a few words

Loyal, Happy, Sad, Trust, Promise, Hardwork and etc

I also learnt so many things that cant be expressed by word

To appreciate those things that I learnt

Thanks to all teachers from SEMASHUR :) 

Without them, I may not be the person I am being right now

I got a break then, and join an army

I was in National Service Camp

There, I met someone special to me

I learnt to protect myself and country

I had so much fun while trying my best to be the best

Thanks to all the teachers or trainers or couches of

Kem Kepimpinan PLKN Segari :)

for teaching me meaning of patriotism and let me met Him 

The toughest part of my life will start soon

I've entered university life

From foundation, I went to Bachelor's degree

It is now!!

Thanks to all the lecturers of

UiTM Puncak Alam and

USM Engineering Campus

for the life I have right now

I tripped, fell and stand

and trip again, fell again and stand again

That's how I live but I'm glad with it

This is how human need to survive

I'm trying really hard to be the best

I hope I can be a person until the end of my breath :)

HAPPY TEACHERS DAY !!

On-Going Operation

This is the situation in Operation Room

*Unsensored*

I really hope my baby can survive

Please be strong

and come back with your memory

Surgeon: Dr. Hanif Zin,

3rd year Mechanical Student

This is after the casing being opened

Need to tore a bit to get the screw

After the disk is found

Operation is still on-going

Hope my baby to get well soon

*Praying*

Postponed

Assalamualaikum

Picture trip to L-Island has successfully handed by Ms. Haziqah last Friday

However due to some technical problem,

the story will be done a little bit later

My little baby just got a disease called the death

It produces a click-click sound

which means its lifespan is just until that time

My feeling right now is just soooooooooo sad

Tears almost pour on my face

Then I told myself, this is what we call 'Ujian'

Try to coorperate with this and 'Usaha' more

That's why I've tried my best asking my friend

since I'm not a pro in this hardware field

Dear my baby,

Please get well soon

Dr. Hanif Zin currently operates my baby

Hope it will be fine

Baby, please recover soon ya !

John Legend - All Of Me

Assalamualaikum

This song catches my attention when I first heard it

Its deep. Seriously the lyric makes me wave even more

Love it. Recommended !

[Verse]

What would I do without your smart mouth

Drawing me in, and you kicking me out

Got my head spinning, no kidding, I can't pin you down

What's going on in that beautiful mind

I'm on your magical mystery ride

And I'm so dizzy, don't know what hit me, but I'll be alright

[Bridge]

My head's underwater

But I'm breathing fine

You're crazy and I'm out of my mind

[Chorus]

'Cause all of me

Loves all of you

Love your curves and all your edges

All your perfect imperfections

Give your all to me

I'll give my all to you

You're my end and my beginning

Even when I lose I'm winning

Cause I give you all of me

And you give me all of you, oh

[Verse]

How many times do I have to tell you

Even when you're crying you're beautiful too

The world is beating you down, I'm around through every mood

You're my downfall, you're my muse

My worst distraction, my rhythm and blues

I can't stop singing, it's ringing in my head for you

[Bridge]

My head's underwater

But I'm breathing fine

You're crazy and I'm out of my mind

[Chorus]

'Cause all of me

Loves all of you

Love your curves and all your edges

All your perfect imperfections

Give your all to me

I'll give my all to you

You're my end and my beginning

Even when I lose I'm winning

Cause I give you all of me

And you give me all of you, oh

Give me all of you, ohohoh

[Bridge]

Cards on the table, we're both showing hearts

Risking it all though it's hard

[Chorus]

Cause all of me

Loves all of you

Love your curves and all your edges

All your perfect imperfections

Give your all to me

I'll give my all to you

You're my end and my beginning

Even when I lose I'm winning

Cause I give you all of me

And you give me all of you

I give you all of me

And you give me all, of you, ohh

Mood

Assalamualaikum..

Mood kini adalah gembira

kerana apa ?

kerana baru balik bercuti, ber-bestymoon

wohooooo

Mood menulis masih belum datang

kerana apa ?

kerana sedang menunggu gambar daripada cik haziqah

dapat gambar baru semangat nak menulis

Mood belajar masih dan tetap akan sama

kerana apa ?

kerana kemalasan tetap sama, tak berubah

kerja bertimbun tetap tak berusik

Mood saat dan tika ini adalah kelam

kerana apa ?

kerana di luar cuaca mendung

dalam kiraan 15 minit awan mungkin akan melepaskan air hujan

maka

Mood yang datang kini ialah tidur

Selamat berehat :)

a DAY to remember

Assalamualaikum

Yesterday was the most happiest day of this month for me. cehh . I had a very fun day berjalan sakan with this two ladies yang tak berapa nak lady-like di Botanical Garden Penang. Haziqah and Ieza. Aktiviti diberi nama A walk for life ialah salah satu event anjuran #TwtUpKejut anjuran bersama Yayasan Cancer Malaysia and Volunteer team called Lets Rock Cancer. Kitorang join event ni suka-suka je di samping dapat membantu insan yang memerlukan. Enough with the chatter and lets see what we did through out the day :)

That's us three in front of Botanical Garden

In front of Lets Rock Cancer poster

In front of Yayasan Kanser Malaysia poster

Before the 'walk' event

Somewhere in the garden. Very nice view 

Mechanic's boy interframe

In front of Rumah Orkid with Naim

Us three again

Paths are made to be taken

Not in height mode =,="

On the bridge

Is that a jump ? yeah >.<

Fly baby, Fly..

Touch the sky

See we can jumpa

Resting for a while

Mecahnic's ladies

Almost at the end of our tour

The end- in front of the main gate

Since the rocky-wall is nice to be the wallpaper

The poyos me

She won 2nd place for Selfie Competition with this picture

That's us in the final destination for the Closing ceremony

Last but not least thanks to all yang terlibat dalam aktiviti ni cause it gives us a lots of memory to be remembered. Cc: Iphone5 Haziqah for those memorable picture.

My day didnt end just like that. I've got a very suprised call from this one man who shakes my day more. Thanks to ziqah and iza cause u guys are such the very super awesome best friend i've known. cehh. Sila jangan riak ye kalau korang baca. I've met that guy about less than 3 hours. So this is one last picture of the day :)

An after-two-months picture :)

p/s : Sila abaikan gambar terakhir.

Salah satu dari PLAN yang berduyun-duyun

Assalamualaikum...

Kali ni cerita tentang PLAN trip ke L-Island :) Kitorang PLAN untuk pegi selama 3 hari 2 malam for honeymoon . hehe . Sebelum start busy dengan project design, maybe we should go somewhere to clear our mind. So kitorang pun decide ke Pulau L and the PLAN is as stated:

This is for 2 pax ye. So darab dengan dua siap-siap dah.

1. Bus Ticket (RM 60)

    From Butterworth <--> Terminal KP

    Duration: 2hr 30min (approximate)

    Dari USM ke Butterworth tu nak mintak jasa baik kawan tolong hantarkan >.<

2. Ferry Ticket (RM 100)

    From KP Jetty <--> L-Island Jetty

    Duration: 1hr 15min (approximate)

3. 3D2N Package (RM 750)

    - Car Rental (48 hrs)

    - Transfer to and from jetty

    - Langkapuri Inn

            * Standard garden view room + Breakfast

            * Check-in: 3pm & Check-out: 12pm

    - Island Hopping (3 1/2 hrs)

            * Pulau Dayang Bunting, Pulau Beras Basah & Pulau Singa Besar

            * Eagle watching

            * Sun bath

    - Snorkeling

            * Pick-up from hotel to Payar island Jetty 

            * Ferry 2-way to Payar Island

            * Snorkeling equipment

            * Fish feeding / sun bathimg

            * Packed lunch on Payar beach

            * Accident insurrance include

    

4. Car Expense (RM 30 for fuel)

5. Food Expense (RM 60)

     - 2x dinner

     - packed lunch

So total PLAN expenses dalam RM 1000 for 2 person. So sorang around RM 500 la plus minus. Rasanya agak mahal tapi untuk 3D2N mungkin nampak berbaloi la dengan aktiviti yang banyak. Harap-harap PLAN ni berjaya la . Niat di hati nak stay kat Malibest Resort tapi dah full booked so terpaksa la cari tempat lain. Tapi still tempat yang dekat dengan Pantai Cenang.

KIV place want to go:

 - Cable car (RM 30/person)

 - Underwater world (RM 30/person)

Package as stated above kitorang dapat dari Package kat link bawah ni:

Nurul Izzati Osman
NBR Lifestyle Enterprise
Contact no: 017-9469005
Email: nbr_lifestyle@yahoo.com
Website: http://cuticutipulaulangkawi.blogspot.com/


   

   

M E T A P H O R E

Aku dapat botol itu sudah lama
dan aku hargai nya hingga ke hujung
tapi bila ada air lain dalam botol lain
aku mungkin pilih botol lain
dan alpa tentang botol lama itu

Botol lama itu seringkali teman aku dalam bekas merah
namun ia mula dipindahkan dalam bekas lain
bekas yang lebih luas, kedap dan umum
Aku mulai hilang arah
Botol yang selalu ada itu terpaksa diserah pergi

Aku beruntung punya botol lama itu
kerna ia acapkali menemani
ia tidak pernah merungut
dan berada di samping walau apa keadaan

Namun bekas kedap itu lebih berkuasa
botol lama yang dahulu ada bersama
kini terpisah
Air dalam botol itu diisi penuh namun tak dapat diminum
mungkin masa masih awal
atau bekas kedap itu perlukan masa lebih lama?

Aku belajar lebih hargai botol lama itu
walau ada botol lain dengan air lebih baik
aku tetap tahu botol lama itu yang aku cari
kenapa?
kerana botol lama itu sudah lama
dan lama nya itu sudah sebati dalam diri
sebati itu sukar dibuang
takkan dipunah

Itu botol lama yang aku suka
itu kegemaran aku

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Metafora- Perbandingan antara benda hidup dengan benda bukan hidup.

Bukan Benci

Hati itu mulai pelik

ada ketikanya ingin kan perhatian jitu

ada ketikanya sunyi itu keras dicari

sukar untuk menghitung soal hati

kalau dulu rasa itu mudah

tapi kini sukar itu menjadi pilihan

bukan niat untuk punya perasaan 'unik' itu

rasa itu bukan benci, marah atau duka

rasa itu bukan perlu disisih atau didamping

ia datang tanpa pemanggil

ia pergi tanpa penyeru

'unik' itu bukan semua dapat rasa

tapi ada yang kongsi perasaan sama

menjauh itu bukan satu pilihan

tetapi ia terpanggil untuk mula menjauh

mengharap perasaan itu tidak tersiar di panggung riak

tetapi ramai pula yang menonton

ramai pula yang tahu akan rasa 'unik' itu

mengharap kemaafan

walau tahu itu satu kesalahan

memohon itu tidak salah

bukan niat untuk perlaku sebegitu

ini soal perasaan 'itu'

bukan mudah untuk dibuang atau dicampak

rasa itu terpaksa digendong

dengan usaha agar tidak lagi terbias

mungkin satu hari rasa itu hilang

'unik' itu normal

saat itu tiada lagi perbezaan

biarlah masa yang menentukan

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R I N D U

Saat rindu bertalu, hati rasa resah gelisah
mungkin kerana emosi yang berombak seperti laut
ada pasangnya, ada surutnya
sama seperti emosi ini
kian hari, kian tidak menentu
kerana hal sekecil kuman
hati ini mula memberontak
mungkin ada kisah nya. mungkin ada penyebab nya

penawar dicari
kalau dulu ada teman di sisi
kini, teman tetap ada cuma rasa berbeza
tapi aku tetap bersyukur dengan kehadiran mereka
dulu teman yang satu itu ku cari
kini, ramai teman yang menemani

menunggu, menghitung
hari demi hari berganti minggu
tetap setia menanti dengan penuh rasa dan emosi
walau ombak emosi itu kadangkala membawa bahaya
tetapi ombak itu juga membawa tenang di hati

aku mulai bergantung dan pulang pada Nya
Dia tempat aku mengadu rasa
ombak yang dulu deras kian tenang
itu kuasa Dia
kita hanya mampu berdoa
namun, hati ku tetap menunggu teman yang satu
untuk pulang ke pangkuan
walau bulan silih berganti
sabar itu ubat sekian segala.


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