I wish...

There are 24 hours given to us to complete each task per day

Yet that hours seem to be so short

Why cant it be any longer?

I wish I know how to use the 24 hours

HE create that hours for us

Be grateful for what has been given

It is just the matter of know's and no's

Give chances to yourselves

Don't ever regret the time that passed

I wish the 24 hours move slower

HE knows the best for us

Believe and have faith in HIM

There are some who can't get through the hours any more

There are changes in every each of who

It is just the matter of time

I wish the 24 hour freeze

All the moment can be kept

Not in hand but in mind

Always thank HIM for whatever happened

There are always something hidden behind

Be patient for whatever changed

I wish I know the 24 hours

At least they never change

HE provides what is in need

People change but time don't

Be tough

Be brave

Try harder

I wish I am who I need to be

. Deep . Future . 2 .

Assalamualaikum

Like always it has been about half of decade this blog being neglected. Its not that I dont wanna write or update, its just that I'm so busy with my intern life. Plus, I've becoming lazier when I get back from work. You know with all the jam stuff on road which makes my day become more tired. Okay stop with the bluffering. Let the story begin...

As stated on the title above, this post is wrote rentetan dari my previous post. Beforehand, mr.driver had told his mom which is my bakal mak about us and I had a wish to tell my mom about 'OUR' matter. Alhamdulillah I'd been given an opportunity to talk to mak openly.

Introduction:

That morning, Nani, one of my neighbour come to my house nak ambil kek. On that time mak tengah design 'Merdeka' cake for this one pengantin. Nak dijadikan cerita, spontaneously Nani asked, "Syud, kau bila nak kawen?". Well that is one famous question at this age. Then I just replied, "Tanya la mak aku tu ha", hikss jawapan selamat. Then nak tau my mom cakap apa, she said "Hai dah ada ke calonnya? Baru je practical." I just smiled like kerang busuk tepi laut.

So that's how everything unexpectedly started.

Content:

Setting: In my Kancil on our way from Tg.Karang to Batu Gajah around 6pm. Then abruptly...

Mak : Dah ada ke calonnya? (suddenly mak asked me)

Me   : Ada dah mak. (shakingly I answered her question)

Mak : Baru practical kat shah alam berapa bulan dah jumpa calon?

Me   : Eh calon dah lama dah jumpa mak. Hehe

Mak : Siapa?

Me   : Ala mak kenal. Mak dah pernah jumpa dah. 

Mak : Eh dah pernah jumpa? Kawan sekolah ke?

Me   : Bukan-bukan. Bukan kawan sekolah.

p/s: don't read my mom's with serious tone. It's just sempoi tone.

I was surprised. She thought I've relationship with one of my school friend. Well mak said she feels a little bit confused because I have many boy-friend back from my primary school. I don't realize that though.

I tried not to mention his name to mak at first because I wanted this conversation to become wider. I'd made a right decision. We then started to talk about merisik, tunang, nikah and then the majlis. I told mak my opinion about not getting engaged and you know what, mak agree with that. She said actually they (mak & ayah) just wanted a simple nikah and kenduri doa selamat. But since getting married is once in a lifetime, insyaAllah, if possible I want a moderate majlis. Well I can't argue more about that because I'm not working yet and my pocket is just full of air.

Me   : Mak, nanti angah mak nak letak hantaran berapa? (I think this is the time to ask)

Mak : Orang kata hantaran sekarang ikut level belajar kan?

Me   : Kalau macam tu, angah degree atas 10k la? (Just asking without any intent)

Mak : Ish tak boleh macam tu. Ikutlah mana yang mampu. Mak tak nak nanti lepas kahwin berhutang

           pulak. Kang, anak mak jugak yang kena sekali.

Me   : Betul ni mak tak kisah berapa?

Mak : Iye, berapa yang mampu la.

Mak is very concern about her daughter future. I'm so happy on that time. 

We continuously talked about this stuff as my Kancil passed through the town. I asked mak about my sister's wedding last two years. I just thought that I need to ask her more about my sister's because she had experienced it once. So, there's maybe some imrovement she wanna do for the second one, insyaAllah. There are two things mak said that ayah doesn't agree with. They are:

1. Pelamin & All the tepung tawar stuffs

2. DJ rental which pot pet nonsense

I agree with the second one but for the first one I think I want it but without tepung tawar. Ala I just want the pelamin for photograph session only. Please ayah let me have just a SIMPLE pelamin. Oh yes, and the syarat-syarat to nikah are:

1. Graduate first, belajar kena habiskan dulu

2. Get to work, ada gaji baru boleh cerita

Say yes, say yes cause I need to know. (Rude by Magic)

Around 8 o'clock, we almost arrived opah's house. Then again mak asked...

Mak : Siapa calonnya?

Me   : Ermm. (I still in doubt whether to tell her or not)

Maiyah : Ala mak abang S****I tu.

Maiyah interupted but I still feel thankful to her. Oh pasang telinga jugak budak ni kat belakang.

Mak : Oh yang tu. (She knows him. Mak knows him! Oh world, mak knew!)

Me   : *can't hide my wideeeee smile*

Mak : Kira tu dah final dah la? Dah tak nampak lelaki lain dah?

Me   : Takat ni tu jela yang nampak mak. Hehe

Mak : Apa lah agaknya kelebihan kat dia sampai tak nampak yang lain dah. (Mak jokingly teased)

Me   : Entah lah mak. (I can't answer that question either)

p/s: don't read my mom's with serious tone. It's just sempoi tone.

So that's my first time having such discussion with mak. Maybe she can openly discuss this matter with me because it is her second time; and maybe because lots of her friend's son or daughter got married just at my age. I hope I can get more courage to discuss about this matter with ayah. But I think that's a long way to go.

Tough luck my friend, no still means  no. (Rude by Magic)

InsyaAllah I still got one year of study while he will start his work about next month after 6 months of training. I hope everything that we plan, will run smoothly. But we can only plan, Allah is the greatest planner of all. Everything is in HIS hands. Pray for us guys.

Every each things happen for a reason.

If they are meant to be, don't feel afraid to fight or to loose.

Because what's yours will always be yours.

If it is not yours, it will never be.

30/08/2014

. Deep . Future .

Assalamualaikum...

Seronok rasanya bila dapat jumpa mak ayah dan jugak si dia pada hari yang sama. Bahagia je rasa hidup ni. Hiksss. By the way congrates to my lil sister dapat sambung belajar kat UiTM Arau, Perlis. Selamat menjadi warga UiTM dan jugak warga Perlis. Belajar rajin-rajin kat sana.

Lepas habiskan masa dengan mak ayah kat Perlis satu hari, tiba masa untuk dorang pulang ke Selangor. They dropped me kat USM and drive back to Tg. Karang. Have a safe journey mak and ayah :)

Sampai je USM dan selamat ber bye-bye dengan mak ayah tadi, terus bersiap-siap ke 'Pulau'. Two weeks waiting is just long enough for me. Almost one hour driving, sampai la ke Bayan Lepas and I met him there. This time it's very different. We had a very deep conversation. About our future together. I'm glad si dia dah bagitau bakal mak about us and niat to get engaged. I am extremely happy about this. Siapa tak happy woii kalau bakal mak dah approve. Tapi bakal mak kata tunggu habis recruit dulu baru la further discuss about this matter. So now maybe I should start to give hints to mak and ayah about this matter.

He talked about job, house, transportation and other things. He did know lots of thing which I'd never think about. Now that I'm sure he is really serious about us. I once asked him, 'agak-agak mak awak nampak ke yang kita serious?'. He replied with simple answer, 'kalau tak serious, orang tak bawak awak jumpa'. Deep.

Age of twenties really make us think more about our own future. I just gotta know my cousin same age with me baru je bertunang a few weeks ago. Mak kata takpe la yang cepat, cepat; yang kemudian, kemudian. Dah jodoh :) That's right. Jodoh is in HIS hand. Kalau betul si dia tu jodoh, nothing will ever stop us from being together. Tapi kalau sebaliknya, there maybe a hikmah and we must redha because HE knows the best for us. That's it. I pray and hope I am in a right path. Pray for me that he is the right one for me. Maybe its too early but who knows? I love being loved by him and I know I'm still young to talk about future but I don't know. It just happen.

I really hope that he is the right one for me.

If I'm wrong, please tell me in any way so that I'm not falling for him.

I really hope I can be a better person so I can be a good daughter, wife and mother.

I am not sure about any of this but I know we're never be ready until we've been in the situation ourselves.

Strength please be with me.

15/06/2014

It's 16th MAY guys !

HAPPY TEACHERS DAY

to all who being a teacher to me and to other kids in this whole world :)

Especially all the teachers whom taught me the real meaning of life from the beginning of my life until now

First of all, of course thanks to my PARENTS whom the best teacher for me

who has taught every single thing about life

always be there and never let me be scared alone

Thanks to SuperMAK and AwesomeAYAH

Both of you are the best teacher for me :)

Then, I started my school days as early as 5 years old

until 6 years old, that was a really young age

During that time, I played, I ate and even slept really well

Hope that time can be rewind

So...

Thanks to teachers from Tadika Kemas and Taski Abim An-Nur Tg Karang

for giving me opportunity to PLAY :)

Primary school started and I started to know more about life

I did homework, did lots of exercises and even went to tuition class

I started to know people, tried to get friend

and yes that was the period when I've made many friends

Joined many tournament and received certificate

All those experiences thanks to teachers from

SK Batu 9 Jalan Bomba :)

Next chapter of my life was flipped

It was Secondary school

I am quite loyal cause I've stayed there for 5 year (WOW!)

I learnt to be matured and knew how to handle people

I learnt who I need to depend to, who the real friends are

Myself; so much got change along my years there

I knew the meaning of a few words

Loyal, Happy, Sad, Trust, Promise, Hardwork and etc

I also learnt so many things that cant be expressed by word

To appreciate those things that I learnt

Thanks to all teachers from SEMASHUR :) 

Without them, I may not be the person I am being right now

I got a break then, and join an army

I was in National Service Camp

There, I met someone special to me

I learnt to protect myself and country

I had so much fun while trying my best to be the best

Thanks to all the teachers or trainers or couches of

Kem Kepimpinan PLKN Segari :)

for teaching me meaning of patriotism and let me met Him 

The toughest part of my life will start soon

I've entered university life

From foundation, I went to Bachelor's degree

It is now!!

Thanks to all the lecturers of

UiTM Puncak Alam and

USM Engineering Campus

for the life I have right now

I tripped, fell and stand

and trip again, fell again and stand again

That's how I live but I'm glad with it

This is how human need to survive

I'm trying really hard to be the best

I hope I can be a person until the end of my breath :)

HAPPY TEACHERS DAY !!

On-Going Operation

This is the situation in Operation Room

*Unsensored*

I really hope my baby can survive

Please be strong

and come back with your memory

Surgeon: Dr. Hanif Zin,

3rd year Mechanical Student

This is after the casing being opened

Need to tore a bit to get the screw

After the disk is found

Operation is still on-going

Hope my baby to get well soon

*Praying*