M E T A P H O R E

Aku dapat botol itu sudah lama
dan aku hargai nya hingga ke hujung
tapi bila ada air lain dalam botol lain
aku mungkin pilih botol lain
dan alpa tentang botol lama itu

Botol lama itu seringkali teman aku dalam bekas merah
namun ia mula dipindahkan dalam bekas lain
bekas yang lebih luas, kedap dan umum
Aku mulai hilang arah
Botol yang selalu ada itu terpaksa diserah pergi

Aku beruntung punya botol lama itu
kerna ia acapkali menemani
ia tidak pernah merungut
dan berada di samping walau apa keadaan

Namun bekas kedap itu lebih berkuasa
botol lama yang dahulu ada bersama
kini terpisah
Air dalam botol itu diisi penuh namun tak dapat diminum
mungkin masa masih awal
atau bekas kedap itu perlukan masa lebih lama?

Aku belajar lebih hargai botol lama itu
walau ada botol lain dengan air lebih baik
aku tetap tahu botol lama itu yang aku cari
kenapa?
kerana botol lama itu sudah lama
dan lama nya itu sudah sebati dalam diri
sebati itu sukar dibuang
takkan dipunah

Itu botol lama yang aku suka
itu kegemaran aku

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Metafora- Perbandingan antara benda hidup dengan benda bukan hidup.

Bukan Benci

Hati itu mulai pelik

ada ketikanya ingin kan perhatian jitu

ada ketikanya sunyi itu keras dicari

sukar untuk menghitung soal hati

kalau dulu rasa itu mudah

tapi kini sukar itu menjadi pilihan

bukan niat untuk punya perasaan 'unik' itu

rasa itu bukan benci, marah atau duka

rasa itu bukan perlu disisih atau didamping

ia datang tanpa pemanggil

ia pergi tanpa penyeru

'unik' itu bukan semua dapat rasa

tapi ada yang kongsi perasaan sama

menjauh itu bukan satu pilihan

tetapi ia terpanggil untuk mula menjauh

mengharap perasaan itu tidak tersiar di panggung riak

tetapi ramai pula yang menonton

ramai pula yang tahu akan rasa 'unik' itu

mengharap kemaafan

walau tahu itu satu kesalahan

memohon itu tidak salah

bukan niat untuk perlaku sebegitu

ini soal perasaan 'itu'

bukan mudah untuk dibuang atau dicampak

rasa itu terpaksa digendong

dengan usaha agar tidak lagi terbias

mungkin satu hari rasa itu hilang

'unik' itu normal

saat itu tiada lagi perbezaan

biarlah masa yang menentukan

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R I N D U

Saat rindu bertalu, hati rasa resah gelisah
mungkin kerana emosi yang berombak seperti laut
ada pasangnya, ada surutnya
sama seperti emosi ini
kian hari, kian tidak menentu
kerana hal sekecil kuman
hati ini mula memberontak
mungkin ada kisah nya. mungkin ada penyebab nya

penawar dicari
kalau dulu ada teman di sisi
kini, teman tetap ada cuma rasa berbeza
tapi aku tetap bersyukur dengan kehadiran mereka
dulu teman yang satu itu ku cari
kini, ramai teman yang menemani

menunggu, menghitung
hari demi hari berganti minggu
tetap setia menanti dengan penuh rasa dan emosi
walau ombak emosi itu kadangkala membawa bahaya
tetapi ombak itu juga membawa tenang di hati

aku mulai bergantung dan pulang pada Nya
Dia tempat aku mengadu rasa
ombak yang dulu deras kian tenang
itu kuasa Dia
kita hanya mampu berdoa
namun, hati ku tetap menunggu teman yang satu
untuk pulang ke pangkuan
walau bulan silih berganti
sabar itu ubat sekian segala.


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Again and again and again

Have you ever feel how hard it is to know the person you knew doesn't remember you, even a bit?

Pain

Hard

Sad

Angry

The disappointment is really huge. But we need to bear for it. Just for a little more time.

My first time I met her, it was during my presentation in my first year. I present about CASPER the kind ghost. On that time, I wasn't really prepared since it was my first presentation. However, she said I presented well and I will get an A solid. I was happy and glad on that time.

this is casper and his uncles

Then, I met her again on my third year. There's one time we need to do a group discussion and our group decided to present about greed in our society. It was a great topic since it happens in the reality. I've become a CEO in a company called Butterfield Corp something like that. She said I was good and I can be a good CEO in the future. I'm glad with that too.

After a few weeks, we need  to do our Individual Oral Presentation (IOP). I choose Half Alive as my tittle. Actually I want to present about paranormal activities and out of body experience but my colleague had done it so I need to change my content. At the end, I present about ZOMBIES since they are not fully alive and they are not even dead. After my presentation, she said; I give less grammatical error in my presentation and I can presented very well. I'm glad again.

Half Alive - Zombies

Lastly, I met her on my Job Interview. It was not a real job interview. It was just like a test or a practice for our course. She said, I can answer quite well with less language error. She asked me whether I got band 4 for my MUET exam and I said I only got band 3. She was like there's must be something wrong with the MUET because you can do it well. That was my fourth time and again, I'm glad.

Job Interview does produce butterfly in my stomach

I was so proud of myself but again and again she doesn't remember me. She forgot how good I was. She always think I'm a new person to her. It does break me. It does make me sad. It does tear me up.

But yesterday, she called out my name. She did remember me. This time I'm truly glad. Now I know, we can never judge people. Maybe they know you but it's hard to call you out. She did remember me.

A year of 2013

salam...

tahun 2013 dah pun nak habes and i just wanna start my blogging again.

too bad for me..

since i'm in USM which is also known as "university sayang menyayang", LOL , i've gone through lots of things. by the way i'll be on my third year in two weeks time. waaaa !! so olddd ! tapi this entry is not about my life there since i'm still in my HOLIDAY even it remains only two weeks.

i just wanna share about my hangout plus beraya last week and today. it is not interesting at all but i want to write it so i'll remember about this. 

this year all of us will be 21 y/o. we're not getting younger okayh. so i make a hypothesis that is; when our age increase, probability for us to meet our primary school friends getting lower and lower. so itulah yang dah jadi kat aku and my old friends. i think last year kitorang tak dapat nak beraya together since cuti yang sangat sekejap. i think around one week macam tu lah.

but this year, 2013 cuti more than one month for raya laa. but still tak dapat jumpa jugak. dah tak dapat nak buat baraan macam dolu dolu..

so, memikirkan apa akan jadi lepas ni, i think i should take the initiative for our own good. its not only my initiative la, of course dengan kerjasama kawan2 yang laen jugak. finally kitorang dapat kumpul 7 orang. 5 girls and 2 boys. walaupun siket but still we meet and had a bowling together.

the date is on 21st August 2013.

the girlssss

that's me with da pink kurung. hikss

the girls again, muka ku besar gabak nye (stail johan ckp)

the boys competing each other ?

so tu jela. after beraya about 6 houses that day, we go to one plaza at kuala selangor and play bowling. how nice the girls play with baju kurung. i think it is rare. ayu gituu. LOL. paying RM9.40 each with student card, we play for two games. guess what. i've got more than 100 marks. yeay for me !! LOL.

after that, kitorang pun pulang ke rumah masing masing. then, i was just thinking nak main bowling lagi for a few days after that. so i've decided to plan a trip there again. and that was today!

although tak ramai pun, we're in a group of five tapi okay la. sebab dapat main lagi. hiksss. this time 4 girls and 1 boy. tapi tak sempat nak snap gambar. kitorang main for three games sebab nak lepas gian yang haritu punya. muahahaha

i've scored better. hehe the first two games i've got the highest no. of pin and the last game i've shared the same no. of pin with my friend but still the highest. heee

here's the pic of the lane

one plaza from the outside. see there a bowling at the right side

i think i'm in love with bowling. nanti dah balik USM, i'll find a place to 'bowl' first. that's it. just a short entry about my raya. HAHA not so important. till next time. maybe next year. 

assalamualaikum..