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last two weeks was the worst week ever in my life for now , i think so . ntah nape banyak dugaan yang datang kat aku . erm actually i'm not the one that faced them . but my dearly loved one . aku cuba ntok tak cakap pasal dear lagi kat blog aku ni tapi aku betul2 da tak tahan .

sakit menanggung rasa rindu . sakit lagi kalau kita tahu orang yang kita sayang tu tak dalam well-condition . erm yeah there was once he fell . maybe i caused it . i said maybe . but i think yeah thats me the one who caused it .

dear jatuh pitam beberapa minggu lepas sebab allergic to 'this one' kind of food . mase tu aku order makanan tu and maybe again i'm the one who pushed him ntok makan makanan tersebut . i'm really sorry dear . i didn't mean to push u finished them . then , erm 3 hours i waited for him kat dalam shopping mall ; alone ; by myself ; with no accompany . sebab mase tu dear balik uma nak mandi ngan harapan allergic problem tu akan hilang .

but then thing getting worst , mase tu la dear pengsan kat uma sewa . kawan2 dear bawak pegi klinik and an hour later , dengan muka yang half concious dear amek aku kat shopping mall tersebut . muka dear sangat la tak larat . i'm the one that guilty .

a week later , on weekend , dear balik uma . dear demam teruk sampai takleh nak gerak and makan . kalau makan je , he will throw it back . aku ase bersala plak tetibe . sebab aku ke ??

masok minggu ni da minggu ke-2 . demam dear da kebah tapi badan plak mula sakit2 . bila malam kepala rase cam nak pecah . sampaikan nak mesej pon dear tak larat . can u imagine a SUPERMAN when he's sick . that's how my lovely dear is .

things get complicated by time passed . selera makan dear mula hilang . erm . boys ! which boy didn't finished their meal . cuba bayangkan sebelum ni makan satu pinggan penuh , and suddenly tak bole nak makan . keep throwing it back :'(

again dear went to see doctor . what urine test ?! so how's the result ? ....

i can't believe it . "okay next week u need to do the x-ray" , the doctor said . but why next week ? why not now . aku ase marah plak ngan doktor tu . bila dah risau , otak pon tak dapat nak pk ngan waras .

so that's it . i've been waiting for good news from dear . dear , i hope u'll get well soon . it's about one month since our last meet . hope to see u be my SUPERMAN again . i love u .

sincerely,
syud .